rune logix

walking through that door

i walked through a door tonight, a door of light.  i found a whole new realm that opened right before my eyes.  in the seat of prayer, the alter, my bed. 

with visions comes everything, memories, and trivia. 

you see creatures with horns of a ram and a face of a man.  they carry you on their back into a foreign land.  which at whose arrival you partake of the gods point of view.  the aeons and aeons pass by and are done.  you see how silly it all is, back down there.  in fact, you have a strong urge to leave it all behind, and never return.  but you insist.  you have a demand to make from them.  you demand opening to the gates of the body and be forgiven your shames.  you diplomatic your plea.  with the poetry of your heart you cry. you sob. and growl.  all to their haughty judgment. until at last, the gods tell you what to do.

and you do it. 

free at last.

when the gods start talking to you

Nephthys is the goddess that always survives by being just who she is.  this is the false set that setians worship, being their own egregor to insurrect the aeon of horus.  simply peevish. the psychological component in ithe human psyche concerned with exproduction.

you can see your gods anywhere.  if you ask them from the poetry of your soul, the bright center that flashes up from your chest, then know you are in conversation with your own holy guardian angel.  this is your daemon to godhood.  the hga can only express your true will, as is proper a 6 = 5.  but you have to be conversant.  you should be in constant conversation, which means, constant pleasure.  joy at every moment of your being.

the gods will speak to you with a distinct and clear voice, even though you cant see who in the vision is talking, you simply know.  everything the gods test you with is choronzon.  everything you see and hear around you is the test of the gods challenging your belief in you who you are until your false ego crumbles away in what will be the chaos of life, and remains true to that you were meant to be. 

such is the guidance of the lady of the silver star, whose color is scarlet to the seeing, yet black to the blind. 

the question is one of technique, either you're in constant discussion with the gods, or you are not.  its not even a question that until you are, true 6 = 5 is not possible.  anything less is simply to operate closer to the sephera of whose existence below the abyss is influencing you. you can only go to the stars if you start now.  your lady awaits you.  you know what this kind of reminds me of.... tarot cards.

our lady of the silver star, hecate.  into your breeze, i fill the air.  whence you dance on as though the floor.  you and your many arms are weapons and heads of men.  inside your lavish eye i kiss.  so beloved and sweat.  i am hadit, your secret center, your heart and your tongue!  come unto me, for it i who fills you.

Mercury Square Sun exact at 18:37 Est.

the unknown aleister crowley

studying crowley is like studying a poltergeist.  some aspects are really well known, some are obviously fictional.  the confessions that are published is an edited account of his life and missing in some very salient details. these are the interesting parts of the legacy of crowley i would like to know answers to:

1. what really happened to his body when he died?

2. what were the conditions and details of his second, and (I think there was a third) third, marriages? for that matter, is there any surviving marriage certificates? who, and what church, did the ceremonies?

3. what was he doing in the late 1930's?

4.  when was his first homosexual encounter? the confessions are vague about a tutor when a young man.

5. where are the cipher manuscripts purported in Liber 61 that authorized the G.'.D.'. to act for the mystical Anna Sprengal?

6. what actually transpired at his funeral that had the city council vow to never allow to have that kind of incident happen again?

7. if he was penniless as he was supposed to be, how was his books, manuscripts, and other magickal items stored?

8. where is a photocopy of the supposed Ministry of Intelligence paycheck that crowley was supposed to be on payroll?

9. what happened to the bulk of his magick weapons and paraphernalia?

10. where, if any, is rose crowleys account of her life and what actually transpired during April 8, 9, 10, 1904, Cairo?

if you have any ideas or theorys, feel free to post, or let me know by email.